Warning: insinuates sexual abuse.
Why?
I'd thought that I hated him,
but now I'm not so sure.
Could it be that his death
was my hatred's only cure?
I used to call him Grandpa
when I loved him long ago
but that love turned to somehting else
when he became someone I didn't know.
Those things he did to me
when I was just a kid-
those things shouldn't have happened.
They shouldn't have, but they did.
A few people have said, "Big Deal"
about the things he did to me.
They said it's just my price to pay,
for childhood isn't free.
At his funeral there were many,
and also many tears.
What's wrong with me that I can only think
of what he did to me for years?
I've tried to just get over it
but it's not an easy thing.
If only it could fly from heart and head
and like a freed bird, take wing.
No, my childhood wasn't free,
It was paid for by living through hell,
and I hardened my heart those years ago,
but now I can't break the shell.
Now that he's gone, I'm the only one left
to remember his biggest sin.
I'm doing my best to let it all go,
but I'm afraid he's still gonna win.
The things he did to me
when I was just a kid,
those things shouldn't have happened.
They shouldn't have, but they did.
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